Karma

I did not know that being upset could quite literally make you sick. Like barf sick. Hmmm... strange.

Definition of being on a "break": It's just break-up, without the up.
Definition of up: Heart-break.

I have realised today. That karma must be non-existant. Karma is where something bad that you did comes back to bite you on the ass. Lately I've been bitten on the ass too many times to count, but I haven't really done anything wrong. As a matter of fact. I've been bittern throughout my whole life and I'd say the "me doing bad things:bad things happening to me" ratio is about 8.97%:91.03%. I have also realised that I don't really know if all the biting is really worth the pain. Why are people on this earth if every corner they turn someone is there ready to stab them right through their heart.

Unfortunately this is beginning to make me question my faith in God. He is meant to be there 100%, he is meant to be all-loving, all-caring, all powerful. So WHY put people on this earth if all they feel is constant pain. Not just physically pain, but mentally, emotionally and spirtually as well. I personally have dealt with A LOT of shit in my life. Shit that most of you couldn't imagine and yet, I still put my faith in Jesus. Why? you ask. I really have no idea. All I know is that when you really feel something and you believe in it, you know that it's going to be worth it. Take singing for example... I know that I can sing. I know that singing keeps whats left of my soul intact. But why do I not do much about it? Because I don't fully believe I could make it. I don't want to try to believe fully incase I get let down irrevocably. Like singing, this is how I feel about Christianity (well at the moment anyway). I don't want to be let down. I hate being told 'I told you so' (which I can absolutely guarantee I will get from some people in the next few days).

Anyway I can barely see the screen and my mouth tastes like sick so I'm off. Ciao.